I’ll admit it, I like things orderly and structured. I’m that person who pre-plans. I have to-do lists, calendars, multi-colored notepad and pens to enable my ultra-structured life. Yet one day my tried and true systems didn’t feel so comfortable anymore. You know that same feeling when you look at your favorite jeans and wonder why you ever bought them in the first place. Or that feeling when you don’t feel the desire to carve your schedule around being able to watch your favorite tv show anymore, and really you wonder why you ever did?
During a drive to work one morning and pondering this feeling of being out of place with my old life, God spoke these words into my spirit: You can’t stay here. What do you mean I can’t stay here, God? You gave me this here. We’ve done some good things here, and there’s more to do. Again, you can’t stay here. Do you ever recall taking a kicking and screaming kid out of a toy store? They wanted to stay because it felt good there. But the parent knew there other things to be done. That was me, kicking and screaming. And God said, girl, get it together there are other things to be done.
To set the record straight, God does not need me to assist Him in carrying out his divine plan. Genesis 1:31 reminds us that everything he created was good, perfect and pleasing to him. He is the great I AM described in Exodus 3:14. But he created us to know him, to love him, to trust him, and to grow in him.
When you go into a relationship with someone you want to learn more about them. What brings them joy? What makes them sad? What are their dreams? My daughter is getting married in a few months and we played some games at her bridal shower recently. One game was How Well Do You Know the Bride. Those who had a longer and deeper relationship with the bride knew more about her.
As his children, God knows us intimately. But how well do we know him? I don’t mean that knowledge that we all can recite from years of Sunday School or Vacation Bible School. I’m talking about knowing Him, as in feeling his very presence as we go about our day. It’s about knowing He’s in control when your world gets turned upside down. It’s about being able to sleep at night and not worry about the next day because you know He’s working everything out for your good just like it says in Romans 8:28 even when it may not feel good. It’s about being so in love with Him that you can love your irritating coworker because you know what it’s like to be loved unconditionally.
I remember the days when my kids were babies. I’d go into their rooms in the morning and they’d reach out to me with those chubby arms and cute faces just wanting to be picked up and held. That’s how I imagine God wants us to seek after Him as we grow into our calling. He wants us to know that we’re safe and it’s okay to leave that place because He is the one carrying us there. We can feel secure in His arms. We can trust that He’s not going to drop us or let us fail. He’s saying “Settle right here daughter, I got you.”
I don’t know about you friend, but with all the craziness in the world right now, I’ve come to a place in my life that I desire to be in the place where God wants me and I’m going to trust that He knows the way. And if that means that I can’t stay where I am, then that’s okay with me!
Isaiah 55:8-9 (NLT): “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”
God, Thank you for seeing something in me that I don’t quite see in myself yet. I believe you when you said that I fearfully and wonderfully made. Help me to desire you and know you more intimately. Give me the confidence to take the steps that you have outlined for me boldly so that your will is accomplished through me. I am humbled by the opportunity to serve through the gifts you have given me. Let the work of my hand be impactful for your kingdom.